a letter to myself a year from today
Dear future me,
Hi.
This is a little strange, but I had some things I wanted to say to you.
Tomorrow is our birthday. In my world you will be 33, but in your world we are a whole year older and wiser. That's what I want to talk to you about. I want to remind you of who you are right now, and who this girl hopes you have become over the past year.
As I sit here, looking ahead to the year 33, I have many mixed emotions. The one I want to tell you about isn't the melancholy of the unmet expectations of the past, or the dread of the reality that we are officially now in our mid-thirties. The one I want to tell you about, is hope.
As I come to this year, my heart is filled with hope and anticipation for what the Lord has in store. I don't know what it is. But I know that, by the time I am you, I wont be the same.
The girl I am today struggles with her weight and because of that, somedays, feels invisible and worthless. She is insecure and uncertain that she deserves to be loved. The girl I am today struggles to celebrate the beauty in other's because it reminds her of her own lack in that area. This girl is sometimes afraid to step out and go for it, for fear that she will fail miserably and let everyone down or worse yet prove that she really is as unworthy as she feels.
Future me, I hope that these things seem strange to you. I pray that this year has taught you confidence and the value you have, while learning to love yourself for every gift and flaw. I hope that you have CRUSHED the goals that the Lord and I have set. I want you to astonish even yourself as you accomplish things and become a person you never thought you could be. I pray that you have stopped all the comparison that robs our heart of joy and learn that there is a precious beauty in all of us that makes us unique and special. I pray that you have learned to search for and celebrate wholeheartedly that beauty in others.
The girl I am today is strong and loves people without restraint. Don't let that fade. I hope that as the year went on and life threw things at you, they haven't hardened your heart, but only made you stronger.
I pray this past year has taught you, more than ever, to have your eyes fixed firmly on the Lord never straying to the right or to the left. I hope you have stopped seeking approval, acceptance or fulfillment from anything or anyone but Christ.
I hope you are a prayer warrior and that this blog is FILLED with all your thoughts and ramblings. I hope you run miles without flinching and that right now, your legs hurt from accomplishing the Chicago Marathon. I hope you have read the Bible cover to cover and taken time to savor all of its precious words. I hope you have learned balance, wisdom, mercy, love, joy, grace and a plethora of other things.
Future me, this hope I speak of has big expectations for the upcoming year.
Try not to have let us down ok?
I hope you didn't give up or quit. I hope you ran and keep running the race the Lord has set out for you with your eyes fixed on Jesus. He is the one who put you on this path. He is the one who will carry you through it. Don't depend on your own strength but on the source of all strength.
You've got this girl.
love, me (the last few moments of age 32)
Hi.
This is a little strange, but I had some things I wanted to say to you.
Tomorrow is our birthday. In my world you will be 33, but in your world we are a whole year older and wiser. That's what I want to talk to you about. I want to remind you of who you are right now, and who this girl hopes you have become over the past year.
As I sit here, looking ahead to the year 33, I have many mixed emotions. The one I want to tell you about isn't the melancholy of the unmet expectations of the past, or the dread of the reality that we are officially now in our mid-thirties. The one I want to tell you about, is hope.
As I come to this year, my heart is filled with hope and anticipation for what the Lord has in store. I don't know what it is. But I know that, by the time I am you, I wont be the same.
The girl I am today struggles with her weight and because of that, somedays, feels invisible and worthless. She is insecure and uncertain that she deserves to be loved. The girl I am today struggles to celebrate the beauty in other's because it reminds her of her own lack in that area. This girl is sometimes afraid to step out and go for it, for fear that she will fail miserably and let everyone down or worse yet prove that she really is as unworthy as she feels.
Future me, I hope that these things seem strange to you. I pray that this year has taught you confidence and the value you have, while learning to love yourself for every gift and flaw. I hope that you have CRUSHED the goals that the Lord and I have set. I want you to astonish even yourself as you accomplish things and become a person you never thought you could be. I pray that you have stopped all the comparison that robs our heart of joy and learn that there is a precious beauty in all of us that makes us unique and special. I pray that you have learned to search for and celebrate wholeheartedly that beauty in others.
The girl I am today is strong and loves people without restraint. Don't let that fade. I hope that as the year went on and life threw things at you, they haven't hardened your heart, but only made you stronger.
I pray this past year has taught you, more than ever, to have your eyes fixed firmly on the Lord never straying to the right or to the left. I hope you have stopped seeking approval, acceptance or fulfillment from anything or anyone but Christ.
I hope you are a prayer warrior and that this blog is FILLED with all your thoughts and ramblings. I hope you run miles without flinching and that right now, your legs hurt from accomplishing the Chicago Marathon. I hope you have read the Bible cover to cover and taken time to savor all of its precious words. I hope you have learned balance, wisdom, mercy, love, joy, grace and a plethora of other things.
Future me, this hope I speak of has big expectations for the upcoming year.
Try not to have let us down ok?
I hope you didn't give up or quit. I hope you ran and keep running the race the Lord has set out for you with your eyes fixed on Jesus. He is the one who put you on this path. He is the one who will carry you through it. Don't depend on your own strength but on the source of all strength.
You've got this girl.
love, me (the last few moments of age 32)
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