trust the process

My plate is a little full this week. And so far, up to this moment I am struggling a bit to get everything done.

I have deadlines looming and low motivation. The things that I need to accomplish are the least favorite parts of my job. But they matter and they need to be done. But I don't wannnnna.

I'm fighting my flesh and my own desires this week to get things done. I want to accomplish things and I want to accomplish them with excellence but I truly hate the process.

Isn't that true about a lot of things, we want to accomplish them but hate the process it takes to make it happen? It takes hard work, or large amounts of effort and we would just rather not do all that. We would rather live on our own terms. I know that most days I would. I would rather do what I want to do, how I want to do it and when I want to do it.

But this doesn't get things done. I am grateful that grace exists because often as I walk through life the process is less amazing than I would hope.

This week it's work, but sometimes it's life.

Words I have been saying to myself a lot lately are "trust the process." I like that statement because there is an element of obedience mixed with an element of faith. In any goal you set or thing you need to accomplish you need a mix of both. You need obedience because it requires action. Nothing will ever happen if you don't move. But you also need faith to trust that the Lord is working out all the details. He is. Even when we don't see it or we hate the process it takes, He is in the mix of it helping you through.

This is true for things a stupid as my work deadlines and as giant as consecrating myself before the Lord to be the person he wants me to be.

So even though this week, I am frustrated with the process I have to go through the meet my deadlines, I will keep moving. Even though sometimes I get frustrated with the path Jesus has me on, I will not give up.

I will trust.



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