all He says i am

So one of the things that I am most certain to bring up along this journey, on a regular basis is the idea of our identity in Christ.

Finding our worth, value, enoughness, whatever...in what Christ says about us and no one else. 

Today, someone said words to me that even now, hours later I cannot shake. Words that cut to my heart, made me angry, but more than anything...made me feel like a worthless failure. Even thinking about them now stirs up all the emotions that I stifled in the moment that they were said to me. 

Tonight, I am trying to banish these dark words and feelings be focusing on what God says about be instead.

According to my God, I am:
a child of God
His friend
justified
redeemed
no longer condemned
adopted
and heir to the Kingdom of God
fearfully and wonderfully made
a new creation
no longer a slave to sin
set free
righteous
holy 
blameless
spotless
chosen
God's workmanship created for good works
a citizen of heaven
beloved
and on and on and on....

His word is full of love for His people. Even when we were yet sinner's Christ died for us.

The enemy continues to make war to prove to me how worthless I am.

I'll be honest, even after making that list I am still wrestling the words that were spoken to me today. I will not pretend like I am perfect. I made that abundantly clear yesterday, but my life means something to the Lord. Every time I start to believe that it doesn't I am making God out as a liar and devaluing what He did on my behalf.

He believed I was worth it. 

He says that I am amazing, not perfect by any means but far better than I, or other people might happen to believe.

Today I am grateful that even when I struggle to believe it, I can be confident that He believes it. 

I am all He says I am.


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