numb

The past two weeks have held some heavy things. Deep aches, heart breaks, moments of illness and frustration , nothing to absolutely break me but piled all together it feels like a lot.

Most of it has been in my periphery. I have ached for others poor decisions, pain, loss and much more. Yet, even that weighs heavily on the heart. 

Today, as I process through a couple other intense items, I find myself in the weird numb place. A place where I know the pain of the news that I am hearing yet can't seem to allow myself to feel it. I am not sure what the Lord is doing or about how to process his timing, but I am sure that He is in all things.

Even if I can't seem to feel the full weight of the information I am absorbing, He can, He does and He is. 


Tonight I will rest in that.  

Just today I was reminded of another season of intense pain weakness and darkness that happened not long ago. I was reminded of one of the hardest most helpless moments of that season and told how God had moved in ways I had never know.

I know my God is good. I know my God is faithful. Even when things seem to make no sense. He is still on the throne.

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