Lemonade

So I need to make a confession. Last night, before bed, instead of writing this blog, I sat around because I wanted to, got hungry and ate some food I should NOT have eaten. It was so frustrating. 

I knew as I was doing it that it would make me angry but I willfully did it anyway. I have plenty of things to be doing right now but I think that's just it. Life got overwhelming for a moment and instead of making food choices I slipped into the old habit of shutting my brain down a bit with some mindless TV and before I knew it, boom, I was snacking. 

This morning. I want to beat myself up so bad. I am ashamed that I gave into the temptation when I KNEW better. But I did and I can't reverse it. SOOOOOO...

I had at least better learn something from it. So here it is, what I learned and some changes I plan to make and strategy I need to have moving forward.

First I learned that I need to war against unproductive ways of shutting down. Sitting in front of the TV for three hours (when I seldom watch TV) is not productive for me. I could have read a book or laid in my hammock but instead I decided to dull myself with something mindless.

I need to keep my mind sharp and active. I am a person who shuts down when life gets overwhelming to me. I know this about myself. I have come a long way in the ways that I do this but I CANNOT and will not go backward. 

Next, I need to have options of alternative things to do besides eating and shutting down, already thought through when this type of scenario rears its ugly head. 

So here we go.

  1. PRAY. The best way to fight temptation whenever it's food or withdrawing from life is to go to the Lord in prayer. (I DEFINITELY did not do this last night)
  2. Have scripture verses on the ready to ward of the attack of the enemy. Use bible memorization but also post them around places where temptation might strike.
  3. Go for a walk. I need to get moving and stop sitting around in my head, letting the enemy play tricks on me.
  4. Drink a bottle of water. (Duh)
  5. Read instead of turning on the tv.
  6. Go outside!!! Something about being outside is life-giving to me.
  7. Write words of encouragement to others.
  8. Write. Just write.
  9. Reach out for support from accountability partners.
  10. RUN.
  11. If it's actual hunger eat a piece of fruit or veggie and then walk away from the fridge.
  12. Go to bed/take a nap.
  13. Make sure that I am not making choices with my nutrition through the day that will leave me hungry at the end of the day. 

Ok, that's a few things anyway to get started. I'm going to stop beating myself up now. I have learned from my mistake and hopefully laid the groundwork for change moving forward. 


I guess when life give you lemons, you have to learn how to make some lemonade. (Hopefully sweetened with stevia or monkfruit and try not to binge on it at 11:30...) 😜

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