change of plans

Tonight, my plans changed many times.

How it has ended up is with me, curled up on a single bed that I am sharing with a grumpy 5 year old who insists he needs to sleep with his aunt Linda.

Many things didn't go according to plan today.

I spent about a quarter of my evening on the floor in front of the toilet on which the MOST STUBBORN little girl in the world was sitting. While she sobbed, I sang and soothed. My niece Gracie in her stubbornness that knows no bounds, refuses to potty train. She also has a massive rash and really needed to not be in a diaper and so, to the potty we went time and again.

Now the reason I am hanging slightly off of a singe bed is because my five year old companion had a rough day. He took a fall at school and broke his thumb. He insisted I sleep with him so, sleep with him I shall.

Not the evening in my cozy king sized bed that I had planned. Yet, precious to me.

Yes, I sat on the bathroom floor while a two year old sobbed, but I also danced like a maniac and told her how proud I was when she DID it. Yes I am currently fading toward sleep, while hanging off the edge of this child size bed, but I am managing to keep a promise to my broken little boy.

Holding onto plans and expectations will only ever disappoint you. Often we don't consult the Lord before we make them. You see, nothing that happened today took the Lord by surprise.

Let's let go of OUR expectations and embrace the plan and will of God.

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