willing and availible

I just clocked out and I am sitting at my desk writing these words on my work computer.

If I make it home and lay eyes on my bed, these words wont happen. At bare minimum, if they did, they would be rushed and phoned in they way they sometimes can be.

Today was the culmination of a lot of hard work.

Since September I have poured countless hours into customizing our new system for client tracking at the mission. It may sound nerdy and boring to you and in truth it may even be a bit, BUT it will revitalize the quality of service we are able to give to our clients.

We have been entering client data into our system for about a month now but tonight was more. Tonight we started down the road of tracking real time data and information.

I know, I know, you have to be thinking, cool...get to the point nerd.

The point is this.

I have anticipated every angle of this night. I have thought through all of the catastrophes that could take place.I have spent hours ironing out details and considering angles.

I had dreaded slightly and felt the pressure that comes along with an undertaking of this size.

And you know what?

It wasn't perfect.

But it WAS pretty close.

Things flowed smoothly, mistakes were made and corrected.

I am proud of my team for their hard work in adapting to this.

You know what else, I was proud of myself for seeing it through. This has been a HUGE mountain that I have been climbing, It has consumed me and taking hours of my life but I did it. Its real.

There is still work to do.

We havent even begun to touch the potential of what it can do for our teams.

But we are on the right track and I got to be a part of leading us there.

This was a task that was TOTALLY out of my comfort zone.

This was something that I had no training or real skill to be able to accomplish. It is such a humbling reminder to me that when the Lord calls you to something, He will also guide you through.

Isnt that what life is about. Just walking from one thing you dont know how to do to the next and then letting the Lord work through you.

The thing that made me right for this task that I was so wrong for, was because I was willing and dilligent. Think how much more a willing and diligent heart can accomplish in the hands of the Lord. Things FAR greater than a data tracking software.

Tonight I will leave this desk satisfied that I have accomplished something.

But even more than that satisfaction I want to keep being willing and availible to the Lord for things far greater than this. Things that scare me and things I am under qualified for.

Yup, my hands did the labor, but the Lord gave the grace to accomplish more than I ever thought I really could.

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