retrain

I haven't talked much about healthy eating of late but that is, of course, a part of this journey. I have eaten "clean" and pretty healthy since starting and I'll be frank the results up until this point have been underwhelming.

Recently I switched my "clean" approach slightly and began to see ever so slight a result, life of course entered, I got a little less careful and my results slowed again.

Soooo this week I decided it really work hard at it. I won't bore you with all the details of my current eating habits but I will tell you it requires me to keep and I on the proportions of my macros.

I, of course, have an app for that. I have, however, found it a little tricky. The current plan I am on flies in the face of a lot of what I had been doing in the past. It is hard for me to retrain my brain to do things like consuming MORE fat, healthy or otherwise.

I have been tracking closely all week and today, I did it. I managed to hit my macros with dead accuracy. This isn't easy.

Now your probably thinking, this is silly Linda, talk about something deep already.

It may seem silly to you, but I wanted to leap up and do a massive happy dance. This was tough to accomplish but I did it.

As I write this in a bizarre way the whole thing makes me think of how the Lord said He would use the foolish things of the world to shame the wise. He uses people and pathways that seem like that absolute opposite of what He SHOULD choose.

I'm glad that just like I am retaining my brain to eat a way that makes no sense to me, I can retrain my heart to follow the Lord down paths that don't make sense.

Today, I crushed it, doing the opposite of what made sense to me.

Often the Lords plans don't make sense to me either but he knows exactly what to do and even when I don't get it, I want to be obedient.

I want to crush it, no matter how strange.