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I'm here. I'm writing. I'm showing up today because I am DESPERATELY trying to regain this discipline. 

Today wasn't perfect. 

I didn't check all the boxes I wanted, but I know that I was where I needed to be. 

Tonight where I need to be is on a couch, trying to listen for my phone or a familiar voice calling my name. It may happen periodically all night long. I may need to assist getting water, meds, getting up to the bathroom, all kinds of other useful things for someone who finds themselves a bit of an invalid. 

My cousin, Laura, donated her bone marrow to a total and has had a difficult time since. Something is wrong in her hip and she is struggling to walk. 

So that's where I need to be today. 

Did I eat perfectly? Nope.

Did I accomplish everything else I hoped to accomplish? Nope.

But I am ok with that. This is greater. This is better. This is good.

This is the kind of person I want to be. 

I want to be the one who doesn't need to be asked to show up and lend an arm, a hand, prep a meal...whatever.

I want to be someone who others can count on, not to be perfect, but to show up. I want to be someone who will give what they can in the best way they can. 

I want to be the person that my friends know will drop their life, get in the car, and sit in the trenches when life gets deep. 


Sometimes you crush your life, sometimes you walk in something greater...it's all about perspective. 

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